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a theory of relative things

by ryk mcintyre

[ poetry - november 04 ]

for JB

As my time comes,
I want to subscribe to it
in sections, easy
instalments,
like stacking boxes.
I'd sign
my name, each bottom line-
rental space
enough for another day.

I just wish I could rearrange
the boxes when I needed to,
exchange
my place in time. force time
closer to my compromise;
use all the right angles.

I'd pick out minutes;
choose a moment; re-live it.
move space, push time around
the clock like furniture,
furnishing myself
a living room,
not just a place to stack boxes.

but we weren't well-timed, yes?
it wasn't the right space
for us (too far apart,
and I'm too old...)
by thirteen years and all the miles,
Worcester to Toronto.

But if I could find the right box,
wade through old baggage for what's true,
I'd trade all this inventory with God,
cause that's the scale on which I love you:
one mile equals one mile I'd walk
to bend space like a folding map
until Massachusetts kissed Canada
just so you might kiss me back.

And I won't grow older, I swear;
this September I won't turn forty-three.
I'll crawl through the Grandfather clause,
make the clock-hands
stop,
until you could catch up with me.

Until then, I'll sign for each day,
I promise. stacking boxes,
leaving no room for regret.
I don't want to waste time,
any of the time,
whatever time you and I have left.
I just pray
through time and space
that who, what,
where, and when
I am,
will always be pleasing to you...

just ask me:
right now,
I'd rearrange my room
just to make room for you.